Good Morning, all. I hope everyone is having a great morning so far. I haven't been to bed in over a day now, actually. I know I have been acting very sad and such for a good while now and I think I know why finally. I know God loves us all and is forgiving but I think I have had the wrong idea about him. I mean just look at some of my posts. You can see where I was afraid of going to hell over something stupid. Well, today I decided to start my 40 day journey by reading a chapter daily from Rick Warren's purpose driven life. In the book it is explained that we will find our purpose here on life as God had made us and made it for us. I hope to be closer to God by the end of this journey and I hope to be more happy and see more of the light he is trying to open my eyes to more than ever. The first chapter (day) covers the subject that we were created for HIM and not the other way around. Um. It is kind of hard to swallow the thought that my purpose in life may not be what I want it to be but then again, it wasn't me that created the heavens, the earth, the universe, and everything (and everyone) else. Yes, it is hard to face the facts that I might not achieve my dreams and goals while I am here, but I have just started my journey. I still have 39 more days to go. I hope that this journey will help me realize that I don't need to be a famous rockstar to be someone. I am putting my trust in God. I am surrendering and letting him take over and I'm gonna see where this leads me. I will be updating every day and giving a personal summary and thoughts of this campaign and I hope it'll resolve some very harsh issues I have been dealing with.