I don`t think I`m an alcoholic.
I never-ever drank a beer or had a glass of wine with lunch in my whole life. I don`t really like the taste of alcohol, any alcohol, I just like to be drunk once in a while.
I actually don`t drink at all - unless I wan`t to get hammered out of my mind. Like as drunk as it gets.
Or nothing. I have a few beers right now in my fridge, but that doesn`t bug me at all, it`s just 3-4, so not enough to get drunk, hence, I`m not interested.
And I can go for days and days without drinking.
I decided to try to not get drunk at all during this year.
But sometimes, like today, I wanted to. I really wanted to drink, write, listen to music, drink and write some more until it becomes gibberish.
It was a really, really strong urge.
So, instead of doing my usual 80-90 minutes on the elliptical, I did two hours, one 3 minute break to drink some water.
And I did push-and sit ups after that until I could do them no more.
I exercised so much that my whole body hurts right now, and tomorrow it`s gonna be worse.
But that doesn`t matter.
I didn`t drink.
If anything makes me really happy in life, then it`s to beat myself, to be stronger than whatever tricks my mind and body play on me.
So here I am, sober, tired and happy that I didn`t give in.
Time to finish off that Koontz novel, Ashley Bell. Good story, curious how it ends.
I`m not one to pat myself on the shoulder ( well, not too often ) but tonight...
I won.
What do you do if you have a struggle like this sometimes, when you get the urge?
I never-ever drank a beer or had a glass of wine with lunch in my whole life. I don`t really like the taste of alcohol, any alcohol, I just like to be drunk once in a while.
I actually don`t drink at all - unless I wan`t to get hammered out of my mind. Like as drunk as it gets.
Or nothing. I have a few beers right now in my fridge, but that doesn`t bug me at all, it`s just 3-4, so not enough to get drunk, hence, I`m not interested.
And I can go for days and days without drinking.
I decided to try to not get drunk at all during this year.
But sometimes, like today, I wanted to. I really wanted to drink, write, listen to music, drink and write some more until it becomes gibberish.
It was a really, really strong urge.
So, instead of doing my usual 80-90 minutes on the elliptical, I did two hours, one 3 minute break to drink some water.
And I did push-and sit ups after that until I could do them no more.
I exercised so much that my whole body hurts right now, and tomorrow it`s gonna be worse.
But that doesn`t matter.
I didn`t drink.
If anything makes me really happy in life, then it`s to beat myself, to be stronger than whatever tricks my mind and body play on me.
So here I am, sober, tired and happy that I didn`t give in.
Time to finish off that Koontz novel, Ashley Bell. Good story, curious how it ends.
I`m not one to pat myself on the shoulder ( well, not too often ) but tonight...
I won.
What do you do if you have a struggle like this sometimes, when you get the urge?