Thank you all for listening and for the wisdom. This is one of those situations where I really needed the perspective of people who know me, but aren't close to the situation, so you guys are perfect! I'll take some time to digest all this and see what feels right. I think part of me needs to realize that I can't go back in time and have the same relationship I had with my sister in the past, but maybe I can rebuild a new type of relationship with her that works on some level. In the meantime I thank you all for listening and sharing!