Completely confused, psychologically, mentally and emotionally

[MIB4u]

As I write this, it's almost 8am, Thursday. Last Tuesday was the last time I slept.

At 2:20pm my phone rings and I pick up to my step mom. Who tells me that my father is dead. Fell from the Großglockner. His buddy was almost instantly dead, but my dad was brought to a hospital. Where he died in the early afternoon.

Psychosomatic insomnia, triggered by shock...?

 

[FlakeNoir]

Oh boy, that is horrible, I'm so sorry for your loss. And I hope you can get some rest soon.

 

[mustangclaire]

Oh no.... I'm so sorry for your loss. Do you have someone with you?

 

[50's Kid]

I couldn't sleep for days, and stopped eating for a few weeks, because I did not want to go on living, preferring to join the other. Eventually hunger took over and I began to eat again. My body also demanded sleep. It took a long time to recover, and the loss is always with you. We all suffer this type of grief eventually, and, even though friends and family are there to comfort us, we must ultimately get through it on our own.
I wrote an entire screenplay around this incident. It was very painful to write, and many, many tears were shed, but it helped to alleviate the pain somewhat.

 

[ClaireB76]

So sad to read this post, and sorry for your loss. You've obviously has a terrible shock and it will take you time to process it, let alone start to grieve and heal. I guess all I can say (and I'm sure I speak for everyone on here) is that we're here for you. Take all the time you need.

 

[Mr Nobody]

First, sorry to read about your dad. It's obviously come as a big shock and it seems to have overwhelmed other brain capacities - it happens (the other side of it is frenzied, obsessional activity; no sleep until you've finished, because you're so close now and sleeping will only make you lose track. That kind of driven, compulsive thing).

Second, the chances are you won't be able to overcome this on your own. Trying could (or will) make you ill and, though your brain might not realize or accept it right now, you need to sleep.
The best advice I can give is to go to your doctor. Explain what's happening and why. See what they can do for you right now, and then give yourself all the time you need to process what's happened.

In the meantime, if it means anything at all, you have my heartfelt best wishes.

 

[HollyGolightly]

I'm so sorry to hear this. You for sure need a little help to get past this moment. There's a process to it all. Shocking, sad, and horrible, but you have to take care of your basic needs. Your grief will be with you a long time, but you have to get out of the loop of insomnia or you will go mad. Reach out. Please take care.

 

[Spideyman]

Am so sorry to hear of your loss. Such a shock can overwhelm your system. Please try to take care. Be with a friend, talk. Sending inner peace.

 

[Moderator]

Very sorry for your loss and would echo the advice given above to get some professional help for the insomnia.

 

[MIB4u]

Thanks for all the caring words and thoughts, it means a lot to me.
Today I finally fell asleep at about 7am, but woke up again at about half past noon. But tonight I'm definately gonna be able to sleep, let's not mention how or why ... XD %) ;P
Tomorrow I'm going to attend the farewell ceremony, let's see how that goes ...

 

[50's Kid]

Careful with whatever medication you use to facilitate sleep.
Don't go to the ceremony alone, or try to drive yourself. I'm not trying to be condescending. Right now, your concentration is not what it should be, which is "normal" in these abnormal situations.
You will get through this. It will just take time; a long time, so be patient with yourself, during the stages of grief. I always thought that was a bunch of B.S., but it is very real.
This too shall pass...

 

[Lily Sawyer]

Oh my gosh - I am *so* sorry about this! My hope is that perhaps you have comfort in the fact that your father was doing what he loved when he died. It's sad that you now have a negative association with one of the most beautiful places on Earth, but the horrible addition to that thought is that your father is no longer with you. My deepest condolences to you and your family, truly.

 

[GNTLGNT]

...my strength for you man....

 

[blunthead]

I'm so sorry. Thoughts, prayers, and vibes MIB.

(((((MIB4U and family)))))

 

[Dana Jean]

This is so awful. Just take each day as it comes and be the person your dad would have wanted you to be, for him, for you.

 

[Grandpa]

I cannot add to the wisdom and sympathy expressed here.

But I am so very sorry. All the best to you and your family in this very difficult time.

 

[king family fan]

i am so very sorry for your loss.

 

[HollyGolightly]

How're are you doing? Did you get some rest? Peace.

 

[doowopgirl]

So sorry for your loss. Be gentle with yourself and talk, talk, talk. It's the only way to deal with your feelings.

 

[Lepplady]

As I write this, it's almost 8am, Thursday. Last Tuesday was the last time I slept.

At 2:20pm my phone rings and I pick up to my step mom. Who tells me that my father is dead. Fell from the Großglockner. His buddy was almost instantly dead, but my dad was brought to a hospital. Where he died in the early afternoon.

Psychosomatic insomnia, triggered by shock...?

I don't think it's psychosomatic. I think it's very real.
You need to sleep. Get some help with that and slowly but surely, everything gets better.