Good evening. May all be well or on the mend. G.A.D. Generalized Anxiety Disorder. Wanna get an idea of what G.A.D. is like? It's morning. I have to get up and get to work. What time is it? I'm I late? Am I early? What's work going to be like today? Am I gonna be okay? Am I gonna frick up? How will I frick up? Think. THINK! Did I do something wrong yesterday that's going to get me written up today? Maybe it was last week? the dog is barking why is he barking what's up with him did i forget to feed him last night did i feed him the wrong thing get up get going whats the first thing i have to do what if i don't know what to do first thing coffee make coffee wheres the stuff to make lunches what day of the month is it what day do i have to pay bills do i have enough money to pay all the bills what if i dont what the hell am i supposed to do did i remember to put gas in the truck whens the last time i put gas in the truck how many miles have i driven this week how if im running on fumes im gonna run outta gas and i wont be able to get my kid to school on time they are going to be mad at my kid for being late poor kid its not his fault how do i get this fixed how am i going to get to work on time what am i going to tell them why im late i should have checked the gas what about the tires are they inflated enough or too much the neighbor was looking around what was she looking at was it something i did or didnt do who is she by the way shes new to the neighborhood does anyone know her what does anyone know about her the kitchen faucet is leaking i have to get that fixed as soon as possible what if its not a simple leak what if its a major malfunction how bad can it be and how much can it cost if its big where can i get the money to have it fixed who can i call will they be able to help me and what was that weird noise i heard under the house last night was it the dog mice rats an opossum what the hell do about that ill have to call the animal control and take a day off from work to have to have them take care of it what if isnt an opossum but a raccoon raccoons can eat eat up the electrical wires which can cause a major fire and burn down the house what will we do if the house burns down where will we live who will take us in Ronnie doesnt like us but my sil will take us in for awhile what the difference between a while and awhile oh have mercy thats going to make a mess for everyone and everyone is gonna square off an each other and theres going to be a battle royal why does that happen i havent been talking to Daddy as much as i shoudl and what about Momma how is she doing if she was sick brother whould have called me and let me know but what if i messed up and got him pizzed off and he wont call what could i have done or said that would get him angry at me what didny do or say that got him pzzed whens the last time i checked the water heater i really should have had the water heater checked what if it causes a fire or we all die of carbon monoxide poisoning someone will call the police because of our rotting cores and our family will have to deal with our deaths and a closed casket funerals and the elders are so old and fragile attending our funerals might kill them as well what about that screeching noise the car makes is it the brakes the lady at the office looked at me kinda funny why my hair and make up was okay wasnt it what did i do or not do to make her look at me that way has my son been too quiet or to loud lately why would that be am i taking too much interest or not enough what has his girlfriend been like lately have i been nice enough or too much of a wimp whens the last time i checked the windows are they cracked or broken i really need to double check when i turn on the clothes iron and when i turn it off or did i turn it off i need to get some birthday cards for the twins their birthday is coming up soon when is that did i get the invitation and forgot it or did i miss it and hurt someones feelings what would i get the twins for their birthday they like trucks or they used to like trucks maybe they have other interests and i missed the transition what kinds of transitions are there and what do they all mean are there different transitions for some people at different times in their live are there different transitions considering the age or circumstances who decides i have to check with my friend how long has it been since i checked what if its only been a couple of days and i bother her by calling again or maybe its been weeks and she will be hurt cause i didnt check enough my feet smell is it my socks or my shoes do i have a foot fungus do i need to get new shoes and socks one or the other or both the ice tray haven;t been used in i dont remember how long i should probably take them out and wash them and fill them up again whens the last time we used ice cubes I really should change the air filters in the ac units how long has it been then again i havent had any problems so maybe i should let sleeping dogs alone what is that saying let sleeping dogs lie lay ly who the hell made up these sayigs i wish i could make up some sayings hoo boy i could make up some good ones and they would be the truth but id probably pizz off people and i don't mind pizzing off people if its the truth but i dont wanna pizz off the wrong people and i still have to deal with them i think the house smells funny what could that be maybe ... Ladies and gentleman...that's sorta what GAD feels like. No punctuation, no periods and no ending. A constant anxiety that begins as soon as you wake up and until you finally, finally fall asleep. Even then, GAD can follow you into your dreams nightmares. 24/7, week in and week out. Month after month. Years, even. GAD is a BITCH. (If you suffer from GAD or suspect you might, please get to mental health professional. There is help and hope.) Peace.