G.A.D.

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  1. Sigmund

    Sigmund Well-Known Member

    Good evening.

    May all be well or on the mend.

    G.A.D. Generalized Anxiety Disorder.

    Wanna get an idea of what G.A.D. is like?

    It's morning. I have to get up and get to work. What time is it? I'm I late? Am I early? What's work going to be like today? Am I gonna be okay? Am I gonna frick up? How will I frick up? Think. THINK! Did I do something wrong yesterday that's going to get me written up today? Maybe it was last week? the dog is barking why is he barking what's up with him did i forget to feed him last night did i feed him the wrong thing get up get going whats the first thing i have to do what if i don't know what to do first thing coffee make coffee wheres the stuff to make lunches what day of the month is it what day do i have to pay bills do i have enough money to pay all the bills what if i dont what the hell am i supposed to do did i remember to put gas in the truck whens the last time i put gas in the truck how many miles have i driven this week how if im running on fumes im gonna run outta gas and i wont be able to get my kid to school on time they are going to be mad at my kid for being late poor kid its not his fault how do i get this fixed how am i going to get to work on time what am i going to tell them why im late i should have checked the gas what about the tires are they inflated enough or too much the neighbor was looking around what was she looking at was it something i did or didnt do who is she by the way shes new to the neighborhood does anyone know her what does anyone know about her the kitchen faucet is leaking i have to get that fixed as soon as possible what if its not a simple leak what if its a major malfunction how bad can it be and how much can it cost if its big where can i get the money to have it fixed who can i call will they be able to help me and what was that weird noise i heard under the house last night was it the dog mice rats an opossum what the hell do about that ill have to call the animal control and take a day off from work to have to have them take care of it what if isnt an opossum but a raccoon raccoons can eat eat up the electrical wires which can cause a major fire and burn down the house what will we do if the house burns down where will we live who will take us in Ronnie doesnt like us but my sil will take us in for awhile what the difference between a while and awhile oh have mercy thats going to make a mess for everyone and everyone is gonna square off an each other and theres going to be a battle royal why does that happen i havent been talking to Daddy as much as i shoudl and what about Momma how is she doing if she was sick brother whould have called me and let me know but what if i messed up and got him pizzed off and he wont call what could i have done or said that would get him angry at me what didny do or say that got him pzzed whens the last time i checked the water heater i really should have had the water heater checked what if it causes a fire or we all die of carbon monoxide poisoning someone will call the police because of our rotting cores and our family will have to deal with our deaths and a closed casket funerals and the elders are so old and fragile attending our funerals might kill them as well what about that screeching noise the car makes is it the brakes the lady at the office looked at me kinda funny why my hair and make up was okay wasnt it what did i do or not do to make her look at me that way has my son been too quiet or to loud lately why would that be am i taking too much interest or not enough what has his girlfriend been like lately have i been nice enough or too much of a wimp whens the last time i checked the windows are they cracked or broken i really need to double check when i turn on the clothes iron and when i turn it off or did i turn it off i need to get some birthday cards for the twins their birthday is coming up soon when is that did i get the invitation and forgot it or did i miss it and hurt someones feelings what would i get the twins for their birthday they like trucks or they used to like trucks maybe they have other interests and i missed the transition what kinds of transitions are there and what do they all mean are there different transitions for some people at different times in their live are there different transitions considering the age or circumstances who decides i have to check with my friend how long has it been since i checked what if its only been a couple of days and i bother her by calling again or maybe its been weeks and she will be hurt cause i didnt check enough my feet smell is it my socks or my shoes do i have a foot fungus do i need to get new shoes and socks one or the other or both the ice tray haven;t been used in i dont remember how long i should probably take them out and wash them and fill them up again whens the last time we used ice cubes I really should change the air filters in the ac units how long has it been then again i havent had any problems so maybe i should let sleeping dogs alone what is that saying let sleeping dogs lie lay ly who the hell made up these sayigs i wish i could make up some sayings hoo boy i could make up some good ones and they would be the truth but id probably pizz off people and i don't mind pizzing off people if its the truth but i dont wanna pizz off the wrong people and i still have to deal with them i think the house smells funny what could that be maybe ...


    Ladies and gentleman...that's sorta what GAD feels like. No punctuation, no periods and no ending. A constant anxiety that begins as soon as you wake up and until you finally, finally fall asleep. Even then, GAD can follow you into your dreams nightmares. 24/7, week in and week out. Month after month. Years, even.

    GAD is a BITCH.

    (If you suffer from GAD or suspect you might, please get to mental health professional. There is help and hope.)

    Peace.
     
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  2. mustangclaire

    mustangclaire There's petrol runnin' through my veins.

    That is a really interesting post Siggy.
     
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  3. GNTLGNT

    GNTLGNT Why Chew Through The Restraints?

    ...I think I may be the cause of it...
     
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  4. HollyGolightly

    HollyGolightly Well-Known Member

    @Sigmund Thanks so much for that! Reading that helped me understand someone in my life a little better. That must be agony, and I feel bad for anyone dealing with it. I have moments like that - but they're fleeting thank God!
     
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  5. ghost19

    ghost19 ..."I aim with my eye."...

    I think the speed at which society and, life in general, moves these days can contribute to this condition. Think about how many tasks you have to accomplish just on a daily basis as you get older and more responsible. Compound these tasks by all the personal dynamics that go into accomplishing these tasks. Throw in checking your cell phone a couple hundred times a day, worrying about your kids, letting people cry on your shoulder, making sure everything at home is as it should be, etc. The shear numbers of things we have to accomplish every 24 hours is sometimes overwhelming. We adjust and deal with it, at least outwardly, but I think the resulting constant flood of thinking we have to do to keep our lives on track takes a toll and sometimes, the flood of thoughts won't recede no matter if your awake or sleeping, or doing whatever. Your brain seems to kick into a sixth gear and, for me at least, sometimes gets stuck there for days and days. It's a fast paced world now, or maybe it always has been, and I'm just older and notice it more. Either way, it's sometimes a challenge to keep up and keep your sanity at the same time.
     
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  6. mustangclaire

    mustangclaire There's petrol runnin' through my veins.

    "Big clapping hands smiley" (as they're not working at mo).
     
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  7. VultureLvr45

    VultureLvr45 Well-Known Member

    Oh Siggy,

    Your post brought tears to my eyes... Honey..... Breathe....Breathe in...Breathe out

    I do understand. GAD is a merciless Bi%ch.

    There are a couple of things you can do to combat this C.
    A. Take a 15 minute walk daily B. Excercise (something strenuous - kickboxing, running
     
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  8. VultureLvr45

    VultureLvr45 Well-Known Member

    Sorry, tablet weirded out. So B, Excercise... Karate, Swimming, Rowing... Something to leave you good and tired and sore. You need to stretch out before and after.

    C. Routine, Little things will help. At night, lay out clothes for tomorrow and set up your coffeemaker, make sweet peas lunch and your own and put them in tne fridge.. First 15 minutes of day, pray and drink coffee. Insist on quiet at this time. Beg God or your higher power or the Lovness you believe in to be present in your daily game plan.

    D. Lists. Make an AM list and a PM complete with check off spots. It helps when energy is low to mindlessly be able to do a task and check it off the list.
     
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  9. Spideyman

    Spideyman Uber Member


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  10. VultureLvr45

    VultureLvr45 Well-Known Member

    E. Most important...When you catch yourself going into the perseverating mode , (Fear based) Challenge that 'stinking thinking'.

    'Say to yourself " I am good, and strong, and will NOT terrorize myself". Just for today, I will not let the Fear Win. I will be strong and flexible as a willow reed, as courageous as a mother lion protecting her cub, and as holy as the sunrise. For God made me, he didn't make junk."

    F. Take anti-anxiety or med as prescribed by your doc. Don't 'self medicate' as that can cause additional issues.

     
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  11. VultureLvr45

    VultureLvr45 Well-Known Member

    Know we care about you.

    Breathe.

    Hugs,

    Peace to you.
     
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  12. carrie's younger brother

    carrie's younger brother Well-Known Member

    From what I can tell, I've suffered from GAD just about all my life. I finally got professional help with it going on about 10 years now and it was the best thing I ever did for myself. I was on medication for a while, but I saw myself becoming lethargic and on the road to addiction. I did the medication for about 3 years and then weaned myself off gradually. I now only take something in extreme situations. A prescription can last me more than 1 year! Psychotherapy is really what helped me. Talking about my anxieties and discovering what were the causes and how to deal with them was key. I now know when I am in the midst of a bad anxiety attack and can remove myself from the situation and figure it out. This makes all the difference. Yes, there are times when it becomes too overwhelming, but that is when I need to face reality, let my husband know what is happening and we work through it together.
    The stream of consciousness account that @Sigmund posted is really what it can be like at times. For years and years I thought EVERYONE felt like this. It was not until I hit rock bottom and sought professional help that I realized this was just not the case.

    Edit: A doctor once described GAD like this to me: A person without GAD can cross the street, almost get hit by a car, make it to the other side and shake it off in a few minutes. A person with GAD crosses the street, almost gets hit by a car, then relives the incident over and over and over in his head until he is obsessed with what almost happened; not what really happened. Being stuck in that loop is one of the worst parts of GAD and can be debilitating. Once it was explained to me like this, I started to understand what it was I needed to do to conquer my anxieties.
     
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  13. HollyGolightly

    HollyGolightly Well-Known Member

    Maybe this is why I don't fight it so often - I do all those things. Exercise is key to my sanity. I don't workout on Saturday & Sunday and by Monday I'm about to blow!
     
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  14. HollyGolightly

    HollyGolightly Well-Known Member

    Perfect description. I tried meds once - I gained about 30 pounds in 3 months. And it took six months to shed it. I can't do meds.
     
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  15. carrie's younger brother

    carrie's younger brother Well-Known Member

    Yes, I too gained weight from the meds. Another reason to "kick the habit."
     
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  16. fushingfeef

    fushingfeef Uber-in-waiting

    I didn't have to read that, I lived it for long enough, thank you very much.

    Sig, you don't say whether you have GAD yourself, but I'm assuming you do. I had it on and off for years and in early 2013 I finally gave up waiting to "snap out of it". I wish I had simply sought out a mental help professional earlier, so much needless suffering. Thank goodness that chapter of my life is over.
     
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  17. no bounce no play

    no bounce no play I am Borg

    That's a great description... It's something people without GAD can understand. I've always been annoyed by people who obsess about the coulda beens. I will be more understanding and supportive in the future :)
     
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  18. carrie's younger brother

    carrie's younger brother Well-Known Member

    Glad I could enlighten you! :smile-new:
    The obsessing on the "coulda beens" is not something one with GAD chooses to do; it just happens and plays in your head like a loop tape, over and over and over and over again. It can be maddening at times. The way I deal with it when it does happen is to take myself completely out of the situation/environment instead being rooted there. It helps.
     
  19. no bounce no play

    no bounce no play I am Borg

    Yesterday evening our water was turned off without warning in the middle of a washing machine cycle. I thought there was something wrong with the washing machine. I messed with the washing machine for about ten minutes before I realized the water had been turned off. I was po'd. Then I thought I'd use this opportunity to try to think like someone with GAD. I thought, What if there had been bleach in the washer and all my clothes had been ruined? I didn't have bleach in the washer though so I wasn't able to dwell on the idea. Next I thought, what if I'd been in the shower and I couldn't rinse the shampoo out of my hair. I wasn't able to dwell on this idea either... my thoughts kept returning to how pissed I was at our podunk rural water company... the city water company always gave us notice before they turned off the water to work on the main. Now I'm thinking maybe I should call the water department before I shower or wash clothes to make sure the water won't be turned off. I may not have GAD but I might have anger issues lol.
     
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  20. Sigmund

    Sigmund Well-Known Member

    Good evening.

    May all be well or on the mend.

    Thank you all for your posts/responses.

    Thank you VERY much for not judging. GAD is not anything one would choose.

    It's not surprising GAD has comorbidity diagnosis of Major Depression Disorder and or/OCD. (As well as eating disorders, addiction(s), self medication and a higher rate of suicides or attempted suicide)

    Peace.
     

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