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((( morgan ))) I'm crying for you and (((Sadie.))) Every dog I've had I have lost to tumours, I can feel what your heart is going through.Well, I wasn't going post anything about this, but I am completely unraveling and could use any prayers and positive thoughts anyone has to spare. Sadie took a really bad turn last night. I was on my way to take her to the emergency on-call vet. Didn't end up going because the ultrasound test she needs wasn't considered an "emergency." She was so restless and miserable, had so much bladder pressure and was passing a lot of blood. She wouldn't stop panting. I ended up increasing her pain meds and she did settle down and was more rested afterward. Today has not been very good either. I'm going to call her regular vet right away in the morning to see if she can do the ultrasound tomorrow. I haven't verbalized what the fear/worst case scenario is for Sadie because I didn't want it to be real. Plus, she's too old for surgery and is already on all the meds for it anyway. Up until now, I just felt that knowing for sure would cause me so much anguish and anxiety that she would suffer from my negative energy. Since she is declining rapidly, I need to have all the facts now. They think she has bladder cancer-a tumor in her bladder. I will find out tomorrow (or as soon as her vet can do the test) how big it is and what we're dealing with. By her behavior this weekend, I suspect it's pretty big already. If I don't intervene, it will get so big that she eventually won't be able to urinate at all. I will not let her suffer like that. So my worst fear looks unavoidable, I will have to decide to put her to sleep. Maybe even tomorrow, but definitely very soon the way things are going. My heart feels like it's being ripped out of my chest. I've been crying since yesterday-my eyes are practically swollen shut. I guess I would ask for you to pray for me to have the strength to get through this-to be strong for her. And pray that she will have a reprieve from the discomfort until I can talk to her vet in the morning. I am trying so hard not to cry. I don't want her to feel my sorrow. How am I supposed to cope with this when I feel I am just waiting for the inevitable. I keep picturing it in my head and I can't breathe.
I wish she'd let me hold her! She only lets me when we're at the vet's office. I have to take her outside every 15 minutes because the pressure's so bad. Thanks so much to you and DJ for your compassion. A lot of people don't understand how much a dog can be loved and considered a part of your family. Especially when you don't have human children. Sadie is my whole world.((( morgan ))) I'm crying for you and (((Sadie.))) Every dog I've had I have lost to tumours, I can feel what your heart is going through.
I am so sorry, and wish that I could take away your pain... and hers--and make it all better.
Forget everything else for now, just hold her and spend every minute that you can loving her... everything else can wait.
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Thank you my dear friend.Morgan, at a loss for words. But you know My prayers are with you.If you need to vent you know where i am. Anytime.
I know.I wish she'd let me hold her! She only lets me when we're at the vet's office. I have to take her outside every 15 minutes because the pressure's so bad. Thanks so much to you and DJ for your compassion. A lot of people don't understand how much a dog can be loved and considered a part of your family. Especially when you don't have human children. Sadie is my whole world.
I understand.... xoxI wish she'd let me hold her! She only lets me when we're at the vet's office. I have to take her outside every 15 minutes because the pressure's so bad. Thanks so much to you and DJ for your compassion. A lot of people don't understand how much a dog can be loved and considered a part of your family. Especially when you don't have human children. Sadie is my whole world.
She has been letting me love on her right when she wakes up in the morning-so I've been lovin' on her, rubbing her ears and back, and doing all that until she won't let me anymore.I understand.... xox
Yes, it makes complete sense. They don't have human lifespans. I will never have another dog, though. My entire heart and soul belongs to Sadie and my heart could NEVER go through all of this again. People say I'll change my mind someday. But I know myself, and I absolutely won't.I'm so, so sorry morgan. I've been where you are and it just breaks your heart. I wish our loved pets could live as long as we do but then we wouldn't have the joy of loving so many of them. Does that make any sense?
How are you doing? How is your mom?I'm so, so sorry morgan. I've been where you are and it just breaks your heart. I wish our loved pets could live as long as we do but then we wouldn't have the joy of loving so many of them. Does that make any sense?
I'm sorry for being so caught up in my grief that I didn't ask for an update on you and your mom! Please forgive my insensitivity, my sorrow is taking a toll on my brain.I'm so, so sorry morgan. I've been where you are and it just breaks your heart. I wish our loved pets could live as long as we do but then we wouldn't have the joy of loving so many of them. Does that make any sense?
Thank you, but my state is in the middle of nowhere and it's not available here. But thank you very much for trying.Oh, Morgan. This is the hardest thing. God, I think of my family (I cant say pets or animals) because they are not that.
It is hurting my heart to post this link. Maybe it can help.
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