I am so very sad and hurting...

[GNTLGNT]

Thank you and the vids made me cry...but a good cry. Becky is taking it hard. We have guests down from the Fort. We were all sitting outside having a brew and Becky started to say something but stopped and burst into tears completely in the middle of her sentence. I am sticking close to this board because it helps me.

 

[Kurben]

((((Staro)))) so sorry. To lose someone you love is horrible tough.

 

[no bounce no play]

I am so very very sorry I wish I could take away some of your grief. (((Staro)))

 

[Lepplady]

When I lived in Fort McMurray, Alberta, I took in stray teens...those whose parents kicked them out. Child welfare did not like it....said maybe they needed to learn the hard and their parents kicked them out for a reason. I told them to go f*ck themselves....which is funny considering I was doing contracts for them at the time. Kids do not learn by being on the street. I had one named Paul Turner. He grew up and got into some heavy drugs but turned his life around. His mother died from alcohol poisoning when he was twelve. I just found out he died from alcohol poisoning. I loved him very much. This is hard for me. I found out tonight. Oh Paul!

He was lucky to have such a caring soul as you in his life.

 

[AnnaMarie]

Thank you all for your kind words..this is where I come when I need comforting. I love you all.
It seems that Paul could not rise above his shakey start in life. He was so wired to self-destruct. It is so sad because he was one of the smartest kindest guy you would ever hope to meet. He is not hurting now, I guess. I took in another teen named Chris at the same time. He is now working and making big bucks at heavy equipment operating and is getting married. He made it!
Sometimes dealing with youths one never knows how things will turn out. I have seen some very sad things and I have seen some miracles. I have to hold unto the miracles.
Thank you all.

This is so true. Sometimes people cannot overcome what happened to them, especially things that happened when they were young. But I am sure that your caring did make Paul's life better.

{{{hugs}}}

 

[kingricefan]

Daer Staro- I have to admit that I didn't want to read this thread. Nothing to do with you, just that I wasn't really in the right state of mind when you started the thread yesterday, I was feeling vulnerable and my own pain was too close to the surface and I didn't want to be any more upset with things than I was. But, today I realized that I was just being selfish and that a SKMB friend was in need so here I am. I am so, so sorry for the loss this young man's passing has brought into your life. So, so sorry. There's really nothing I can do to take away your grief and pain, other than to offer my condolences. How about a cyber hug? ((((Staro/Becky)))) It's all I can do for you. I wish there was more. Please, please know that you had to have made a HUGE impact on this person's life! You brought him some happiness that otherwise he would never have had. You made a difference! Know that and rejoice in the fact that you were there for someone who needed you. Sometimes there's just no 'fixing' a person, no matter how hard you try. You can only do so much. The fact that you did something to help him is more than enough. Bless you.

 

[The Nameless]

It's a very dangerous, yet noble thing you did staro, a real testament of character. Life is exceptionally hard for some people and their vices to escape it often turn out to be the hardest thing of all to deal with.

I'm sorry for your loss and sorrow.

 

[Shasta]

((((Staro)))) I'm so sorry.

 

[Shoesalesman]

Sorry about your loss, Staro.

 

[blunthead]

...Sometimes the world just doesn't seem fair, and indeed it isn't. We just keep on doing the best we can to improve ourselves, make our corner of the world a little better for our presence, and hope that someday in the big scheme it's counted for something, and generations down the line have a better life overall due to our little contributions that we're making now.

Good word, Gramps. Without a doubt the little we do daily determines the future; good for better, bad for worse. This is why indifference is unnecessary and bad.

(((((staro)))))

 

[if-so-Grrl]

Staro, I'm very sorry for your pain. You did right by Paul, and sometimes that's the most you can do. Huge cyber-hugs. (((((Staro)))))

 

[Sigmund]

Daer Staro- I have to admit that I didn't want to read this thread. Nothing to do with you, just that I wasn't really in the right state of mind when you started the thread yesterday, I was feeling vulnerable and my own pain was too close to the surface and I didn't want to be any more upset with things than I was. But, today I realized that I was just being selfish and that a SKMB friend was in need so here I am. I am so, so sorry for the loss this young man's passing has brought into your life. So, so sorry. There's really nothing I can do to take away your grief and pain, other than to offer my condolences. How about a cyber hug? ((((Staro/Becky)))) It's all I can do for you. I wish there was more. Please, please know that you had to have made a HUGE impact on this person's life! You brought him some happiness that otherwise he would never have had. You made a difference! Know that and rejoice in the fact that you were there for someone who needed you. Sometimes there's just no 'fixing' a person, no matter how hard you try. You can only do so much. The fact that you did something to help him is more than enough. Bless you.

 

[Sigmund]

Good evening.

Are you okay? Is there anything I (we) can help with?

Prayers and well wishes going your way.

Peace.

 

[EMTP513]

I'm sad and hurting now too, altho I probably shouldn't be. It's the path I chose to take in life, my work, but I told my partner that after all these years at the paramedic level I still haven't figured out how to rapidly adjust myself after a child dies, one we couldn't save no matter how hard we tried.
Not meaning to make it about me, that's just what I'm sad and hurting about. Now it's out and I can move on.

 

[Sigmund]

I'm sad and hurting now too, altho I probably shouldn't be. It's the path I chose to take in life, my work, but I told my partner that after all these years at the paramedic level I still haven't figured out how to rapidly adjust myself after a child dies, one we couldn't save no matter how hard we tried.
Not meaning to make it about me, that's just what I'm sad and hurting about. Now it's out and I can move on.

Good evening.

I keep reading your posts and I'm troubled. I'm sure your heart is in the right place but...if you cannot remove yourself from your job and home...maybe...you are not in the right position. ??? If you cannot *compartmentalize * your work and life...it would be a disaster. I would hate to read you have hurt your self or slipped into a depression. It happens.

Think about it.

Peace.

 

[kingricefan]

Good evening.

Are you okay? Is there anything I (we) can help with?

Prayers and well wishes going your way.

Peace.

Hi Siggy. I am not sure if this was directed at me? If so, I am fine. It's trouble with work, just tired of working for dumb *sses. My frustration level is at an all time high. It's time for me to move on and find another place to work as things aren't going to get any better (unless the manager(s) are fired). Anyway, I thank you for your concern.

 

[Sigmund]

Hi Siggy. I am not sure if this was directed at me? If so, I am fine. It's trouble with work, just tired of working for dumb *sses. My frustration level is at an all time high. It's time for me to move on and find another place to work as things aren't going to get any better (unless the manager(s) are fired). Anyway, I thank you for your concern.

Yes Sir. It was directed at you.

Hugs, prayers, and well wishes.

Peace.

(oh, BTW some managers should be FIRED. Ha!)

(Stay cool and frosty.)

 

[kingricefan]

Yes Sir. It was directed at you.

Hugs, prayers, and well wishes.

Peace.

Thank you!!

 

[Sigmund]

Sorry for the thread jack.

Peace.

 

[kingricefan]

Sorry for the thread jack.

Peace.

Me, too. Let's get back to topic.