God Bomb--a Place For Prayers/positive Vibes

[AchtungBaby]

Thanks for the replies. It means a lot. I've been all over the place the last few days and haven't really been up to responding. I feel like half of me is gone and it's just draining. I keep coming back to this:

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16 years is a long damn time to be so deeply connected to someone, only for it to suddenly be ripped away. Memories keep flooding in. Every story I wrote, she was my first reader. I am bad about procrastinating, and she'd tell me to get off my ass, and to try even harder. A lot of what I've written is just as much hers as it is mine. I suppose--and I never realized this until the last few days--I was never in a serious relationship because she WAS my serious relationship. We were friends. We were lovers. And it's over.

 

[FlakeNoir]

Thanks for the replies. It means a lot. I've been all over the place the last few days and haven't really been up to responding. I feel like half of me is gone and it's just draining. I keep coming back to this:

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16 years is a long damn time to be so deeply connected to someone, only for it to suddenly be ripped away. Memories keep flooding in. Every story I wrote, she was my first reader. I am bad about procrastinating, and she'd tell me to get off my ass, and to try even harder. A lot of what I've written is just as much hers as it is mine. I suppose--and I never realized this until the last few days--I was never in a serious relationship because she WAS my serious relationship. We were friends. We were lovers. And it's over.

(((Cody)))

 

[FlakeNoir]

Sending my thoughts and best wishes out for all those affected by yesterday's earthquake in Mexico, very scary and sad for all those families that have lost loved ones.

 

[Spideyman]

Wildfires in Montana, Ca--Earthquakes in Mexico-- monster Tropical storms in the Atlantic and Pacific. There is something wrong with Mother Nature. Prayers and positive vibes for all.

 

[Dana Jean]

Wildfires in Montana, Ca--Earthquakes in Mexico-- monster Tropical storms in the Atlantic and Pacific. There is something wrong with Mother Nature. Prayers and positive vibes for all.

Soda Springs Idaho has had 203 earthquakes in the last 7 days. The largest 5.3, most over 2.

 

[Spideyman]

Soda Springs Idaho has had 203 earthquakes in the last 7 days. The largest 5.3, most over 2.

unbelievable.

 

[rockerchick]

What I like about this forum is that people talk about issues, books, current events and stuff we like. It's not a cliquey popularity contest full of stupid nothing threads about other members.

 

[king family fan]

Many prayers being said for all in Path of irma. Very scary. ((Spidey and Critters)

 

[Doc Creed]

One of my best friends committed suicide last night. She was my age. I'm in shock, everyone's in shock. She and I were best friends for 16 years--we met at the age of five, and were as close as can be. I believe friends can be soulmates, and she was certainly mine. In the last few months I'd become the main person she talked to--she was on her own and working--and was struggling with alcoholism and depression. Tried to help as best as I could, but it always feels like it isn't enough. I'm too shocked right now to feel anything. We had dinner last week and was texting Monday night--all seemed fine, no alarm bells or red flags. I know it's natural for those left behind to beat themselves up, and I'm doing that. Can't help it.

She was a big Stephen King fan, and I would occasionally tell her about you guys. She wasn't big into social media or else I think she might have joined here. Her favorite King book was Hearts in Atlantis, and I'm not sure I'll ever be able to read it again. It just feels like a part of me is gone, dead.

There are lessons and everything, and silver linings can always be found... today I was more appreciative of my family and friends and I was thankful to be here. I've been dealing with my own issues, as I've posted before. If anything, this has been sort of a wake up call. Maybe. Who knows.

I was told she left two letters: one to her parents and one to me. They have to be processed, though, so I can't read mine for a couple weeks. (Or so I heard.)

I'm too shocked to feel anything. I'm numb. She and I were going to see IT this weekend. The memories of the past decade and a half are flooding in, and it's all almost too much. Just keep her family, and my family, in your prayers. 2017 has been the year from hell.

Cody, I'm incredibly sorry for your loss and that so much darkness has plagued you this year. I am just now seeing this and it certainly sheds light on your other posts. This is too much. My prayers are with you all.

 

[danie]

AchtungBaby, I am just now seeing your post too. I'm so sorry about your friend. We are here for you in your sadness and whenever you just feel like talking.

 

[muskrat]

Ok, tet mates, ol Muskie needs some prayers/vibes/maybe sacrifice a goat or two, whatever you do. Sounds like Mama Muskrat's cancer might be coming back. This we don't need. I'd kinda like to keep her around awhile longer.

Gimme some of that ol SKMB magic, cats. Thankee.

 

[cat in a bag]

((((Muskie's Mama, Muskie and family))))

Prayers and healing vibes on the way!

 

[Spideyman]

Ok, tet mates, ol Muskie needs some prayers/vibes/maybe sacrifice a goat or two, whatever you do. Sounds like Mama Muskrat's cancer might be coming back. This we don't need. I'd kinda like to keep her around awhile longer.

Gimme some of that ol SKMB magic, cats. Thankee.

Tons of prayers and positive vibes your way. (((Muskie's mama))) Some inner peace for you to cope.

 

[Dana Jean]

Ok, tet mates, ol Muskie needs some prayers/vibes/maybe sacrifice a goat or two, whatever you do. Sounds like Mama Muskrat's cancer might be coming back. This we don't need. I'd kinda like to keep her around awhile longer.

Gimme some of that ol SKMB magic, cats. Thankee.

You absolutely have them.

 

[Dana Jean]

Keep us posted muskrat.

 

[Moderator]

Ok, tet mates, ol Muskie needs some prayers/vibes/maybe sacrifice a goat or two, whatever you do. Sounds like Mama Muskrat's cancer might be coming back. This we don't need. I'd kinda like to keep her around awhile longer.

Gimme some of that ol SKMB magic, cats. Thankee.

Thoughts, prayers, and positive vibes all on their way.

 

[GNTLGNT]

Ok, tet mates, ol Muskie needs some prayers/vibes/maybe sacrifice a goat or two, whatever you do. Sounds like Mama Muskrat's cancer might be coming back. This we don't need. I'd kinda like to keep her around awhile longer.

Gimme some of that ol SKMB magic, cats. Thankee.

.....you have every vibe I can squeeze out brother....

 

[Spideyman]

May all within the path of Maria be safe:

 

[Neesy]

Ok, tet mates, ol Muskie needs some prayers/vibes/maybe sacrifice a goat or two, whatever you do. Sounds like Mama Muskrat's cancer might be coming back. This we don't need. I'd kinda like to keep her around awhile longer.

Gimme some of that ol SKMB magic, cats. Thankee.

Sending a prayer your way - I'm sure she's a fighter (like Andy was) so hope things improve

 

[morgan]

You're still in my thoughts and prayers AchtungBaby .

Prayers for muskrat 's mom.