I'm bummed today because...

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doowopgirl

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Looks like my husband Rick may have a hernia. He's got a Dr's appt today to confirm this but needless to say i closed my eyes for maybe 2 hours last night because i'm the Fox Mulder of paranoia. And i don't WANT to be that person, you know...logically, this is what it is and it can be dealt with swiftly but in the back of my brain...that's where all the dark thoughts sleep. My fright lends nothing to the situation... this is not about me and i should keep it together enough to hold the love of my life's paw and say bright, shiny, positive things.

ok...I can't type any more.....
I hope you get good news
 

Hill lover35

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My anxiety is high today and not shure why. I have taken all you meds and herbal supplements and am running my diffuser.. but I am doing my best to push through it, and tidy and organize my room


I pushed through my anxiety and ended up, doing laundry and cleaning my room. Eventually my anxiety did go away. And whent to a kids Christmas concert this evening. But I have been felling lonely lately and not shure why? For some stupid reason it has to do wiht a semi famous person
 

FlakeNoir

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I pushed through my anxiety and ended up, doing laundry and cleaning my room. Eventually my anxiety did go away. And whent to a kids Christmas concert this evening. But I have been felling lonely lately and not shure why? For some stupid reason it has to do wiht a semi famous person
I'm glad your anxiety passed. :smile:
As for the feelings over the semi-famous person... those too will pass. And because he means so much to you, perhaps you will be happy for him, as we are for those we care for when they find joy in their lives?
 

FlakeNoir

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No I am he seems happy with this person. Perhaps I have lived wiht this fantasy for at least a year, and it got me through some really bad **** this year. Thanks I know this will pass. And no I am not revealing who this person is. Lol
I understand.. :biggrin2:
My favourite rugby player got married at the end of last year and even though I am totally not in the market, it was like.... "Oi! WTF, dude?!" :laugh: I'm kidding... (mostly, :Oo: he was really cute and such a good player, he retired from rugby last year too. *sigh* )
 

Hill lover35

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I understand.. :biggrin2:
My favourite rugby player got married at the end of last year and even though I am totally not in the market, it was like.... "Oy! WTF, dude?!" :laugh: I'm kidding... (mostly, :Oo: he was really cute and such a good player, he retired from rugby last year too. *sigh* )


I know I had this whole thing figured out, and the best part was that it could have became reality it was very very slim but it still could happen. He just had to come to Canada.. oh well I will tell my self it never whould have worked due to him not like ing rush and is a marvel comic fan. I do still plan on writing him a fan letter, but on I stragram or something
But it will not be an I love you thing because that is weird.
 

FlakeNoir

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I know I had this whole thing figured out, and the best part was that it could have became reality it was very very slim but it still could happen. He just had to come to Canada.. oh well I will tell my self it never whould have worked due to him not like ing rush and is a marvel comic fan. I do still plan on writing him a fan letter, but on I stragram or something
But it will not be an I love you thing because that is weird.
Little fantasies are great, especially during tough times... but keeping your feet firmly placed in reality is so important. You'll only end up either a) hurting yourself or b) getting yourself onto somebodies stalker list... and nobody wants that! :biggrin2:
 

CoriSCapnSkip

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I hate how internet discussions about rape or sexual assault always turn into a contest to see who suffered the most.

Yeah, I posted on Facebook several anecdotes I will share* here if people want, about living in fear for over thirty years, remembering exactly when it started, around when it got better although it will never go away, and things I experienced. One male friend replied complaining that in none of the stories was I personally assaulted! I wrote back that I was sorry if it was not interesting enough, I just wrote what really happened as I experienced it. Another guy was alarmed as hell by one of the stories so I guess the first guy felt kind of out of line at last. A female friend posted saying she knew not so good stories, but didn't elaborate.

*Here's a link, and please let me know if anyone who wants to see it can't, and if you want me to copy and paste, and if so where, thanks.
 
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CoriSCapnSkip

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As I've mentioned, I've been attending Cognitive Behavioral Therapy three times a week, driving over 70 miles each way. On November 22 I was stricken with such an attack of pain and illness I had to turn around and go to a medical clinic. Luckily this happened only about 15 miles away from home and the clinic is only 10 miles away. I was diagnosed with a bladder infection and possibly other issues, but they had to clear up the infection before further tests. After further tests I saw my doctor on December 4, who said tests seemed to rule out a kidney stone (which is what the symptoms seemed most like) and they couldn't find anything else either! I still felt like a bag of crud, but was forced to drive to CBT as they have decided absences must be "medically excused," and I technically wasn't sick! I don't feel well or strong, and my doctor doesn't want to do a followup till January 8! I am SURE something is SERIOUSLY wrong and want to have it identified and treated before Christmas--not dragging along another freaking month no matter what the time of year!