My father passed away two years ago today. We weren't emotionally close and lived thousands of miles away from each other since I was about two years old. Long and sad story. Always thought there would be time to right all of the wrongs.
Just wanted to remind everyone that life is short and if you have unfinished business or unresolved feelings, the time is now. Tomorrow is a gift we don't always have.
Thank you for the reminder,
morgan, and I hope you are finding some peace for yourself.
I guess I'm more susceptible to heartbreak as I get older, but it's downright amazing to me how I keep not learning this^ very simple truth. People spend so much time looking for things that sometimes they forget they already have things. I was a very young man -- a boy, really -- the first time the world kicked me as hard as I thought it could.
I was wrong about that. The world could kick much harder, and it would. As a young man (I was only 26 when the
really bad thing happened) I still thought I was supposed to bear up under tragedy with that old Anglo-Saxon stiff upper lip and that I was certainly not going to put on an emotional "show" for anyone.
Yeah . . . I was pretty stupid.
In fact, I still am, in at least one very important particular.
In my old life, the people who claim to know about such things would tell me something very much like "Realizing that you're an idiot is the first step on the path to getting smarter."
I don't know if this necessarily makes me "smarter," but the ability to recognize what I don't know seems like pretty valuable skill . . . even if it turns out to be "too late."
Get busy living.