Hrmph... I LOOK LIKE A MILLION BUCKS!Sorry, you'd have to pay me and I don't think I'm thathard up(better rethink that one) lacking for money yet.
(all green and wrinkled)
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Hrmph... I LOOK LIKE A MILLION BUCKS!Sorry, you'd have to pay me and I don't think I'm thathard up(better rethink that one) lacking for money yet.
Hrmph... I LOOK LIKE A MILLION BUCKS!
(all green and wrinkled)
Yes, I am being given as far as I can see the following choices as to lodgings over the next few years:
1. Stay where I am and keep everything I consider mine, but be unable to maintain it, and end up basically living in a haunted house that eventually collapses around me, where my stuff will be ruined anyhow and I will probably die. Or I could try to recruit a roommate who either won't materialize at all or will be some psycho who holds me prisoner in my own home.
2. Give up all but a few basics of everything I care about (meaning, being forced into thousands of Sophie's Choices regarding what to liquidate and how!) and move with the rest tied in a bandanna into some place I can afford, meaning shack, box, or tent. I could live forty years in this state but with no possessions, hobbies, or pets, I would spend every day of it cursing the day I was born. I am not particularly materialistic but would much rather die. I would happily die if everyone else would be better off that way, but will take some convincing that that is really best.
3. I either commit some crime (or more likely am accused of one), or am a victim of a crime, illness, or accident, and end up in an institution. (Prison or hospital. Worse than a shack or box.)
4. A miracle happens making the three top choices irrelevant.
5. Just die in the next few years and get it over with. And even then unless it is sudden I have to figure out who gets my stuff which gives me a headache to think about.
The reason I am putting this stuff out there now is that whatever happens I don't want anyone saying I didn't see it coming.
How are your chances to get a part time job and make some money?
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Certain family members have insisted since 1963 that I have a bad temper. (I don't remember 1963 personally but am told this.) One in particular has insisted since 1972 that I am an idiot and a mental defective, based solely on my having flunked math once in 7th grade, and that I became upset every time I was mistreated--had I simply accepted and ignored the bad treatment (supposedly) I would have avoided trouble. (These family members have never been treated like this on a regular basis and object violently on the few occasions when they have been.)
I have reiterated until blue in the face: Do you think the American Revolution was won by colonists saying, oh, the British monarchs are acting too big for their britches, but let's not say anything as there might be trouble?
Do you think the American Civil War was won by saying, oh, some southern states are seceding from the Union because they want to keep slaves, but let's not say anything as there might be trouble?
Do you think the World Wars were won by saying, oh, there seems to be a spot of bother overseas, but let's not say anything as there might be trouble?
Was the Civil Rights movement won by people saying, geez, some people are so set on segregation they will use vicious dogs, fire hoses, clubs, jails, and guns to enforce it, but let's not say anything as there might be trouble? (The women's suffrage and Civil Rights movements are particularly dear to my heart as violent means were enforced to deprive people of their rights, and those demanding their rights jailed as troublemakers.)
I argued until I was blue in the face and all these people could see was, you get upset when anyone does something wrong to you. This is never the responsibility of those committing the wrong, it is due to you being a troublemaker, because you are too much of a mental defective not to make trouble and too much of an idiot to avoid it.
This is where The Twilight Zone comes in. Why am I the only one to not only recognize a serious problem here, I seem to be the only one able to define the problem? (Previous to my being diagnosed with a developmental disability, any problem was written off as a mental illness, bad character flaw, or overactive imagination--never anything real anyone else did.) Repeatedly, hundreds if not thousands of times since early childhood, if I so much as pick my nose, I am pounced on for committing grievous war crimes against humanity, yet every time someone verbally or physically attacks me, insults me, wastes my time, and disrespects my property, if I ask for support or even witnesses to say, "Did you see what they said or did? Do they just get away with that?" I am blamed for "making a big deal out of nothing" and being immature as "we're all adults here." (I hate that phrase--it's open license for abuse without recourse.)
When I realized I had Asperger's Syndrome and received my diagnosis, no one was more shocked or floored than I. I had simply taken on faith that I was the victim of repeated injustices, crappy luck, or really warped senses of humor, not that I was in fact actually defective. It rendered me more than a little uneasy--was any of what I perceived as mistreatment actually justified? I did gain benefits from people acknowledging, oh, so you weren't paranoid all those years. For decades I was accused of being paranoid to the point where I simply ignored bizarre behavior on almost anyone's part, and got in deep with some real psychos who would have scared off anyone else with all the red flags. Then of course I was blamed for not recognizing a bad situation when I saw it.
Yes, all those bad things really happened, you didn't imagine them, but guess what, THEY HAPPENED BECAUSE THEY WERE ALL YOUR FAULT FOR BEING AN IDIOT AND A MENTAL DEFECTIVE! So even the diagnosis was used not to get me help but to vindicate any mistreatment, with still no acknowledgement of wrongdoing on anyone else's part.
Anyone who's been in online groups with me can attest, I wasn't the only person to have trouble in the ones where there was trouble. (Which was by no means all of them.) I was just the canary in the coal mine who attracted the first and most attention. My family couldn't see this until a couple of public run-ins, one in 2009 and one in 2010 when I was singlehandedly forced to practically annihilate a couple of total strangers in public. (The first time my brother-in-law intervened before the situation could escalate.) I think the message did get through then, that there are people out there with problems besides me, but I am still expected to laugh off the mistreatment and "not make a big deal out of nothing."
Still, my every minor offense is jumped on with spiked boots, while everyone else walks off scot free getting away with murder, and I am dismissed as self-centered and grouchy. Surely that must be the only explanation of why I would be upset when blindsided from left field with a bunch of extra demands while being informed my best efforts aren't good enough. Sure, it's all a character flaw on my part, because everyone else in the world is perfect.
To those with this attitude, I say: be careful what you wish for, you may get it. If all these wonderful people who I'm expected to excuse of every offense are really supposed to be so much better than I am, fine. Live with them, and do without me, but don't say I agreed that it was right because I didn't. I am simply tired of arguing, so give in and give the people what they want, is all I say. If you want me to say I'm not worth anyone's time, trouble, or effort, then fine. Over and out.
Have you tried Anime? Some stories are very interesting. You just have to find which ones are right for you, but there is something for all tastes.
Is it okay if I insult and say bad things about your family?
With such a family, it may have been way harder to truly accept one is fine, with differences that make us better at some things, worse at others. Really, everyone is like this, not only people with Asperger's, but just because the others are a large group that is usually better at certain things (mainly, socializing and looking people in the eyes), suddenly everyone who is not like that is wrong and a target to their attacks.
You deserve a family who sees you for who you are, good and bad, and nurtures your natural abilities, instead of limiting you.
More layoffs yesterday. Brings the totals to about 570. In the last month. Only that number does not include all the other businesses also laying off. My town is dying.
It is so hard balancing being so very grateful hubby has not been cut and the sadness over what so many people are facing.
I am scared.
(((Cat))) We've had a similar situation around here because of paper mill shutdowns. Unfortunately, those towns had relied heavily on the mills for their income--both personal and at the municipal level so it's had a major impact on everyone. I don't say that to minimize your or your community's situation at all--just that I understand how it affects so many people.
More layoffs yesterday. Brings the totals to about 570. In the last month. Only that number does not include all the other businesses also laying off. My town is dying.
It is so hard balancing being so very grateful hubby has not been cut and the sadness over what so many people are facing.
I am scared.
More layoffs yesterday. Brings the totals to about 570. In the last month. Only that number does not include all the other businesses also laying off. My town is dying.
It is so hard balancing being so very grateful hubby has not been cut and the sadness over what so many people are facing.
I am scared.
Oh, they still get printed in multiple copies so doing our part there. My recollection is one of the mills produced the paper to print the three Fifty Shades of Gray books.Buy more newspapers Ms. Mod!!!! And tell SK to write his manuscripts out like the old days........that'll help.