Yes ma'am, I definitely did. I quit eleven years ago when I found out I was going to be a father. For the previous decade before that, I had been a pack and half to two packs a day smoker. My wife quit before we ever decided to try and have a kid, but she was never the dedicated smoker that I was..lol, ok, here's the point to my ramble, eleven years later and I STILL WANT A CIGARETTE EVERY MORNING WHEN I WAKE UP AND ALL THROUGHOUT THE DAY......The one and only reason I don't start back up is because of my son....and the fact my wife would probably shove the pack of smokes up my nose if she found out I started back, but it's an everyday battle for me. It shouldn't be after this long, but it is, I don't understand why. If I see other people smoking, I just take a deep breath and move on, cigarette smoke does not smell bad to me at all, in fact, the smell of a Marlboro smells like fine wine to me. How messed up is that? My wife has no problem at all not smoking, she just walked away, cold turkey. I did also, but I've never been able to kick the habit mentally. I gained quite a bit of weight when I quit that I've never been able to completely lose. So, in closing, I completely understand how hard it is to kick the habit, health risks and second hand smoke aside, I still want one all the time.....
Oh lord, I hope this doesn't happen. Or else I'll be dead early...but they'll bury me with a smile on my face, that's for damn sure!
The funny thing is, even while I was pregnant, I wanted a smoke so bad it drove me nuts. If I hung around my husband while he smoked, I about died. It smelled so good! I totally get that! I only smoke six a day--coffin nails, not packs--and I've had other smokers tell me not to stress it, so few aren't a problem. And I am so tempted to believe them...
I think half my problem with quitting, besides the fact I like smoking, is the fact that non smokers drive me nuts. At least, the ones I know personally. The smokers in my life are better people all the way around, and I frankly don't want the stigma of being a non-smoker. But then I don't want my son to become a smoker, and I have to lead by example.
Also, I smoke the organic American Spirits, and those things are expensive. Between me and my husband, we spend well over a hundred bucks a month. The cost is what has us on the topic of quitting. Not the health benefits. That's how bad we are.