My heart is hurting for you... this made me cry. I truly know how you feel and it is heartbreaking. Time doesn't heal.. it's been 4 years in March since my Mother passed. I was holding her when she took her last breath, believe it or not, I am grateful for that. But time really doesn't heal... you just learn to carry on. I don't know your religious beliefs, but I get comfort in knowing one day I will join both my parents one day. And to me, losing a beloved fur-baby is like losing a member of my family... I love mine that much. I wish there was something I could say to help.. or do. I can only really offer hugs from afar (((((((((((((((( Dana )))))))))))))))))) .. but should you ever need to talk, I am here. And you are in my prayers. Love and Peace always my friend