When I was three years old, I found a dead sparrow on the sidewalk. I didn`t understand why it didn`t fly away when I got close to it, and when I took it in my tiny hands and he was all stiff and cold, I started crying something unbelievable.
My dad kept saying that everything is OK, that that is nature and he tried to explain a bit about that to me, but I was too small, I couldn`t understand death.
I brought the sparrow home and prayed, as much as a three year old can pray, to God to make him alive again. ( and no, my parents weren`t religious nuts, they didn`t even believe in God. I don`t know where I got that from, to be a Christian, nobody ever thought me nothing about that, I just love Jesus since I can remember ).
But God didn`t make him alive again.
And so started my everlasting journey in exploring death and God.
I didn`t find any answers when I was a kid, and I still can`t find any answers as a grownup.
But that`s me...always thinking about death...and God...