I'm so sorry to hear this krf! (((You))) sometimes the blows just keep coming! Take care of yourself!Cody, please keep in mind that this will all pass. I've been around long enough to know from experience that the bad-gunky eventually goes away, sometimes quickly, sometimes longer. I'm right there with you on the sadness- I had to put down one of my fur babies yesterday (just a little over a month since my Mom died) and it's hitting me like a ton of bricks. Do you maybe suffer from SAD (the lack-of-sunshine syndrome)? Maybe you need to get outside and be active outdoors, taking long walks or a hike? Please know that we are all here for you anytime.