And she was a feminist, that the feminists would trash! WTH? She was sexually free, and very strong, spoke her mind. But, there was a very raw vulnerability that would pop up every now and then.. There were times she was so unsure, self esteem nil. She listened to critics and it hurt her. Sometimes.
Part of the documentary showed her going back to her 10 year class reunion. That was one of the saddest things I've seen in this type of documentary. She was an outcast in high school. I'm sure she was bullied. And the reunion, it was all about her, paparazzi all over the place, focused on her. But I don't think her triumphant return gave her the feelings she had hoped to get. It left her sad. I was sad for her. The reunion was awkward to say the least.
Ultimately, she just wanted her family proud of her. She wrote a lot of letters to her family, she loved them. But, they were from a different era -- she tried to understand them, they tried to understand her. No matter how famous she got, she kept right on apologizing to her family right to the end that she let them down. That she wasn't the daughter they wanted.