It was a blessing being so naive.
I was 17 going on 18 , just about to finish high school and brother, was I ever in love. Not that I had any experience with girls, and as silly as it sounds, I had never even kissed a girl yet. Well, I did, once, on the cheek, and I thought I was going to faint.
Being shy as you can only imagine, I couldn`t tell her, even though it was written all over my face, my whole being, so the next best thing was to become friends with her best girlfriend.
At least I sometimes had the chance to say "hi" to this girl of my dreams when those two were together and I was there, too, naturally "by coincidence."
Her friend knew of course, I told her but she told me that "my love" was in love with some other guy. Yeah, yeah, corny, but it broke my heart.
What I didn`t know was that the friend was in love with me. I liked her, a lot, but as a friend, my heart belonged to the other.
So this one afternoon, we were just hanging around the school, talking, laughing, having a really good time and she kissed me on the cheek a few times. I thought nothing of it, we were just friends.
Or so I thought.
We sat on the school steps, still laughing, just being silly and then she asked me : " Would you go with me? "
Naive, stupid, not thinking straight... call it what you want, but I looked at her, like a kid, and said "Where?"
I will never forget the look on her face, the way she looked at me. With pure, clean love, her cheeks flushed so hard that they were almost purple.
Then she smiled, a really, really sweet smile, caressed my hair, kissed me once more, straight on my eye and said: " You dummy. You sweet, sweet innocent dummy. I hope you will be happy in life."
And with that, she ran down the path that lead to the main street.
I looked after her for a long time, not understanding what just happened, why did she leave, where did she go, what had I done?
And then it dawned on me. For the longest time I just sat there, on those steps and looked at the school building, somehow knowing that the time of innocence just ended.
I don`t know what happened to her later on. School was out in a couple of weeks, and pretty soon the war in my country started. The war that destroyed everything.
Except these beautiful memories.
And in nights like these are, when only my heart is talking to me, I long for that innocent, young, dumb and naive guy I had once been.
Cause the man who is writing this is everything but that.
Yeah, my dear and sweet friend...I hope you survived it all, and I also hope, just like you hoped for me, that you are happy and that life is kind on you...somewhere....
I was 17 going on 18 , just about to finish high school and brother, was I ever in love. Not that I had any experience with girls, and as silly as it sounds, I had never even kissed a girl yet. Well, I did, once, on the cheek, and I thought I was going to faint.
Being shy as you can only imagine, I couldn`t tell her, even though it was written all over my face, my whole being, so the next best thing was to become friends with her best girlfriend.
At least I sometimes had the chance to say "hi" to this girl of my dreams when those two were together and I was there, too, naturally "by coincidence."
Her friend knew of course, I told her but she told me that "my love" was in love with some other guy. Yeah, yeah, corny, but it broke my heart.
What I didn`t know was that the friend was in love with me. I liked her, a lot, but as a friend, my heart belonged to the other.
So this one afternoon, we were just hanging around the school, talking, laughing, having a really good time and she kissed me on the cheek a few times. I thought nothing of it, we were just friends.
Or so I thought.
We sat on the school steps, still laughing, just being silly and then she asked me : " Would you go with me? "
Naive, stupid, not thinking straight... call it what you want, but I looked at her, like a kid, and said "Where?"
I will never forget the look on her face, the way she looked at me. With pure, clean love, her cheeks flushed so hard that they were almost purple.
Then she smiled, a really, really sweet smile, caressed my hair, kissed me once more, straight on my eye and said: " You dummy. You sweet, sweet innocent dummy. I hope you will be happy in life."
And with that, she ran down the path that lead to the main street.
I looked after her for a long time, not understanding what just happened, why did she leave, where did she go, what had I done?
And then it dawned on me. For the longest time I just sat there, on those steps and looked at the school building, somehow knowing that the time of innocence just ended.
I don`t know what happened to her later on. School was out in a couple of weeks, and pretty soon the war in my country started. The war that destroyed everything.
Except these beautiful memories.
And in nights like these are, when only my heart is talking to me, I long for that innocent, young, dumb and naive guy I had once been.
Cause the man who is writing this is everything but that.
Yeah, my dear and sweet friend...I hope you survived it all, and I also hope, just like you hoped for me, that you are happy and that life is kind on you...somewhere....
