I am late to this, not because I do not care, but instead I empathize too much...My father will be gone 5 years on December 4th sometime around 3:15...I, like many others have said, understand exactly what you are going through...Truthfully I miss him every day but I see him every day as well...Something his grandchildren, my offspring, say or do or in the way they look at me...Heck I even say some of the things exactly like he did back when I would roll my eyes at him...I feel for you big guy...The numbness will ease off eventually but it takes some time...As a wise man once said, and I am paraphrasing "You will never forget the face of your father"...