Would like to reintroduce myself (been gone a long time)

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FlakeNoir

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#41
Hi there l am a newbie :)
l understand you l have suffer deprssion for most of my life, now it has degenerated into a borderline personality desorder, this very year l almost succedeed into ending my own life. I have scars in my arms from the cuts that l have made myself and still my brother and others tells me and treats me like this is my fault, like l am faking it or that l am just a big lazy because l sleep so much, or that i have gaing so much wieght just because l eta a lot and because l am giving untiphsicotics that are proove that can make you put on weigh. Only my mom seems to understand that l am sick, and that l did not choose to be sick, and that l can not choose when l will get better, if l ever do. l can only keep taking my medication and going to teraphy and keep struggling and hope things will be ok in the end.

Thank you for sharing and allow me to share.
Glad to hear that you're still with us... and I'm very sorry that you're suffering from deep depression, I hope things will get better for you.
 

melindaville

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#42
Hi there l am a newbie :)
l understand you l have suffer deprssion for most of my life, now it has degenerated into a borderline personality desorder, this very year l almost succedeed into ending my own life. I have scars in my arms from the cuts that l have made myself and still my brother and others tells me and treats me like this is my fault, like l am faking it or that l am just a big lazy because l sleep so much, or that i have gaing so much wieght just because l eta a lot and because l am giving untiphsicotics that are proove that can make you put on weigh. Only my mom seems to understand that l am sick, and that l did not choose to be sick, and that l can not choose when l will get better, if l ever do. l can only keep taking my medication and going to teraphy and keep struggling and hope things will be ok in the end.

Thank you for sharing and allow me to share.
I'm so sorry to have delayed this response to you. First welcome to the board. This is an amazing place with very fine folks--very accepting people who have always shown me kindness.

I'm so sorry you suffer from depression. I struggle with this still--and I believe I will throughout my life. But there's always hope and I urge you to seek the help of a psychologist or counselor. There are many who work pro bono or who have sliding fees and there are other options (if you would like help with finding help, send me a PM).

There are many misconceptions about depression and other psychological issues. We must continue to fight for better understanding and care. We need to treat mental health as seriously as we do physical health--they are tied together anyway. I am vocal about my issues with depression because I want to be a voice. I'm not famous but I have a blog and I've written one book and working on another--and I try to use whatever platform I have to shine a light of truth on depression.

Most people don't realize that more people missed work last year due to depression than ALL "physical" illnesses combined. Anyone who tells you that you are faking doesn't know what he's talking about.

Here's a (((((((((hug)))))))) from another person who suffers from this. I've actually been struggling a bit with it now, which is why I've not been around month. This is the first Holiday season without my mother. She died on New Years Day last year and I just miss her so much. So, I really do understand. Take good care and PM me any time.
 
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