God Bomb--a Place For Prayers/positive Vibes

[not_nadine]

((Morgan))

North Dakota Pet Loss Resources

 

[morgan]

((Morgan))

North Dakota Pet Loss Resources

Thank you-there isn't a link for Bismarck, but I do know I can pay extra to have her cremated separately and get her ashes and then have them buried with me.

 

[redman]

I live in a small town and early this morning a sherriff's deputy was killed in the line of duty! Here is a link to the story if you are interested! His name is Matt and I worked with him several years ago at a grocery store. If you could send some positive vibes that would be awesome! He was a great guy and he leaves behind a young wife & child. Shootout kills Cedar County sheriff's deputy | Local - KY3.com

 

[FlakeNoir]

I live in a small town and early this morning a sherriff's deputy was killed in the line of duty! Here is a link to the story if you are interested! His name is Matt and I worked with him several years ago at a grocery store. If you could send some positive vibes that would be awesome! He was a great guy and he leaves behind a young wife & child. Shootout kills Cedar County sheriff's deputy | Local - KY3.com

That's awful....
My thoughts are with you all.

 

[blunthead]

Well, I wasn't going post anything about this, but I am completely unraveling and could use any prayers and positive thoughts anyone has to spare. Sadie took a really bad turn last night. I was on my way to take her to the emergency on-call vet. Didn't end up going because the ultrasound test she needs wasn't considered an "emergency." She was so restless and miserable, had so much bladder pressure and was passing a lot of blood. She wouldn't stop panting. I ended up increasing her pain meds and she did settle down and was more rested afterward. Today has not been very good either. I'm going to call her regular vet right away in the morning to see if she can do the ultrasound tomorrow. I haven't verbalized what the fear/worst case scenario is for Sadie because I didn't want it to be real. Plus, she's too old for surgery and is already on all the meds for it anyway. Up until now, I just felt that knowing for sure would cause me so much anguish and anxiety that she would suffer from my negative energy. Since she is declining rapidly, I need to have all the facts now. They think she has bladder cancer-a tumor in her bladder. I will find out tomorrow (or as soon as her vet can do the test) how big it is and what we're dealing with. By her behavior this weekend, I suspect it's pretty big already. If I don't intervene, it will get so big that she eventually won't be able to urinate at all. I will not let her suffer like that. So my worst fear looks unavoidable, I will have to decide to put her to sleep. Maybe even tomorrow, but definitely very soon the way things are going. My heart feels like it's being ripped out of my chest. I've been crying since yesterday-my eyes are practically swollen shut. I guess I would ask for you to pray for me to have the strength to get through this-to be strong for her. And pray that she will have a reprieve from the discomfort until I can talk to her vet in the morning. I am trying so hard not to cry. I don't want her to feel my sorrow. How am I supposed to cope with this when I feel I am just waiting for the inevitable. I keep picturing it in my head and I can't breathe.

Dear Morgan, oh how I empathize with what you're going through. Try to be strong long enough to follow through with doing the right thing. If you have to put her to sleep know that it's ok if you can't be present. I understand totally your desire not to grieve in front of her.

I believe I safely speak for all when I say our thoughts, prayers and positive vibes are with you.

 

[not_nadine]

Blunt, thank you for expressing what we all wanted to say.

 

[FlakeNoir]

There is no right or wrong answer when it comes to that time, just what is right for the both of you. I had to be with mine, all of them, just what I needed to do.

 

[not_nadine]

Yes, I fought it. Took her everywhere, to all the best I could find. Hospitals U of Penn. everywhere.
I finally had to accept it.

They said, "You will know"

I did not really understand or want to know what they meant.

Then, I did. Poor girl was just so tired.

When the time came it was so fast. She just went to sleep while I was holding her. No pain for her.

I totally understand not being there. I had no idea that I could. My husband had to leave in tears when the time came.

It happened so fast.

And it is not over. I still grieve. It has been years.

But I knew I had to end her pain.

 

[FlakeNoir]

I'm so sorry for talking about this now Morgan but wanted you to know that it may be an option if you decided you wanted it--I have always had the vet come to my home, it's been as calm and as natural a process as possible this way.

Again, I'm sorry hon, this is terrible to talk about now--my heart is breaking for you.

 

[not_nadine]

Yes, sorry - this is bringing up all kinds of emotions, and I lost track of Morgan's pain and I remembered mine and posted.

Morgan, may you have peace in your heart and soul through this time.

 

[Jojo87]

Morgan- I am so sorry to hear this. Prayers being said for you.
Redman- My thoughts are with you and everyone in your small town.

 

[pegasus216]

I live in a small town and early this morning a sherriff's deputy was killed in the line of duty! Here is a link to the story if you are interested! His name is Matt and I worked with him several years ago at a grocery store. If you could send some positive vibes that would be awesome! He was a great guy and he leaves behind a young wife & child. Shootout kills Cedar County sheriff's deputy | Local - KY3.com

Prayers for Matt's family, and all around him.

 

[blunthead]

(((((Matt's family, friends and loved ones))))).

 

[Spideyman]

((((Matt's family, friends and loved ones))))).

 

[cat in a bag]

((((Morgan and Sadie))))

I am very sorry Sadie is feeling worse and send prayers, hugs and comforting vibes.

((((Matt, his family and friends, and the town))))

 

[king family fan]

(((Morgan and Sadie)))
(((Matt, his family and friends)))

 

[skimom2]

Well, I wasn't going post anything about this, but I am completely unraveling and could use any prayers and positive thoughts anyone has to spare. Sadie took a really bad turn last night. I was on my way to take her to the emergency on-call vet. Didn't end up going because the ultrasound test she needs wasn't considered an "emergency." She was so restless and miserable, had so much bladder pressure and was passing a lot of blood. She wouldn't stop panting. I ended up increasing her pain meds and she did settle down and was more rested afterward. Today has not been very good either. I'm going to call her regular vet right away in the morning to see if she can do the ultrasound tomorrow. I haven't verbalized what the fear/worst case scenario is for Sadie because I didn't want it to be real. Plus, she's too old for surgery and is already on all the meds for it anyway. Up until now, I just felt that knowing for sure would cause me so much anguish and anxiety that she would suffer from my negative energy. Since she is declining rapidly, I need to have all the facts now. They think she has bladder cancer-a tumor in her bladder. I will find out tomorrow (or as soon as her vet can do the test) how big it is and what we're dealing with. By her behavior this weekend, I suspect it's pretty big already. If I don't intervene, it will get so big that she eventually won't be able to urinate at all. I will not let her suffer like that. So my worst fear looks unavoidable, I will have to decide to put her to sleep. Maybe even tomorrow, but definitely very soon the way things are going. My heart feels like it's being ripped out of my chest. I've been crying since yesterday-my eyes are practically swollen shut. I guess I would ask for you to pray for me to have the strength to get through this-to be strong for her. And pray that she will have a reprieve from the discomfort until I can talk to her vet in the morning. I am trying so hard not to cry. I don't want her to feel my sorrow. How am I supposed to cope with this when I feel I am just waiting for the inevitable. I keep picturing it in my head and I can't breathe.

Sweetness, you'll do what you have to do, and then you'll grieve. There's no way around that. Just love her the way she likes, be with her, and let her go when it's the right time. You're her best friend, too. Know that so many people are loving you and Sadie from afar.

 

[SusanNorton]

Morgan - we went through this almost 10 years ago, and I still feel the pain. Just know that you are doing the right thing, your heart is in the right place, and most of all Sadie knows that you are doing the right things for her. The day I had to drive to the vet, knowing what was about to happen, was the worst day of my life. I'm crying right now, remembering, and I'm praying for you! God bless you, you are a good and responsible and loving pet parent!

 

[do1you9love?]

(((Matt and all of Cedar County)))

 

[AchtungBaby]

Praying for you Morgan. I know how you feel--pets (or "fur babies") become a part of the family.